Just less then 24 hours after I posted my last entry, I've got like 10 or more people discouraging me for continuing my unhealthy method of slimming 😔
I have no idea where they got my email, formspring & my contact. I don't even know a few of them😱
I shall explain myself here. Whether you think it's right or not, please kindly put yourself in my shoes. Thankyou
In my last entry, I know and I've also stated that this method of slimming I'm undergoing now is unhealthy. So you asked me " Since you know it's unhealthy why still go for it? ". This shall be my answer to the curious you.
Imagine yourself in my shoes. I was weighing 55kg 6 years ago. The meals I ate every single day are all home cooked by my super health conscious mum except for my meal when i'm schooling usually a bowl of bee hoon soup. KFC/Mac once a fortnight when I'm out with friends. I exercise regularly by playing netball twice a week for 2 hours (I was in a netball team with my nearby community centre). Normal exercising for another 1 hour which is during PE lessons. At this rate, my weight shouldn't be increasing, either maintain or decrease. But my weight ACTUALLY keep on increasing!
2 years later, weighing 60kg, still same meals but still at an active state. Slowly when my mum isn't by your side always (my close friends will somehow know why) hence unable to prepare meals and on top of that, I'm working long hours with only one off day per week. Going for a swim once a week which is on my off day. But at this time when I'm on my own, I can only eat outside everyday, hence weight went up twice as fast.
At a point of nearing 70kg, I kick start off wanting to slim down (2 yrs ago). Preparing meals myself with healthy recipes you can find from the Internet, 1hr plus at gym in the morning before my long day of work for a few months, weight dropped for 1-2 kg after the 1st 2 weeks and went stagnant after that.
Changed to Herbalife when I see successful story right before my eyes. A month of supply cost me around $200-300/month when I'm drawing a salary of $700/mth. Tried for 2 months and stopped because I simply cannot survive with the balance off $400 with bills and responsibilities hence landed myself into a few bad debts. So I got to stop.
Started with my first slimming pill, Reduze. A slightly cheaper means for me. But same thing, stopped because $500+ is still not enough to settle my debts and bills and responsibility.
Changed to just eating home cooked food at my boyfriend's house for dinner at times, exercising when I really got the time, weight still keep on increasing.
Changed job with slightly lesser working hours on weekends. Went for a swim twice weekly. Eating dumpling soup / just meat and vegetables without rice most of the time. What disappoints me still is the ever increasing weight.
Right at the point of 82 kg, I finally resorted to Duromine. Hesitated for months while keep doing research on this pill, being fully aware of what this medicine is and the side effects of it, I went to see a doctor for it, told the doctor what you read earlier on, she then prescribed it to me. That's how I started with this pill.
This appetite suppressant not only stops all my cravings, it never gave me ant hunger pangs yet. No stomach growling for food, etc. thus I won't say this is starvation. For those who say me stupid because I go for this, to what extend you are cleverer then me? I'm going be a little nasty here but don't blame me because you fucking don't understand what I'm going through exactly. You never went through those humiliation and hurtful remarks. You never see that drastic change when you compare your photographs from 6yrs ago and now. You never undergo before the times when you just wna buy those supplements for weight loss and ended up with penniless which u can't even afford a bus ride. You never been through the times when you are alrdy at a "L" size shirt/pants and the X keep wanting to squeeze in front of the L! 😡😡😡
With all that I said that you never been through, what position are you in to say I'm stupid?! I'm getting so worked up because IRL, I'm not stupid and I hate ppl calling me stupid. If I'm stupid I won't be able to speak fluently for my languages. If I'm stupid I won't be able to survive when I'm on my own with nobody paying my bills, etc. if I'm stupid I won't even pass my Diploma cert in Aesthetician.
So please fucking put yourself in other people's shoes and think THRICE before you say/do anything.
Impulsiveness won't bring you any where higher and further.
Enough of my rants. Shall stop here. Once again, I know this is an unhealthy way of slimming down but also the only way I start seeing my weight drops. With self consciousness, I'll definitely stop when it's time and control my intake after that. Once I slimmed down, I swear I will never return to this weight ever again unless I am pregnant.
Lastly, I LOVE RUNNING MAN ❕❕❕💗💗💗
Perseverance is commitment, hard work, patience, endurance.
Perseverance is being able to bear difficulties calmly and without complaint.
Perseverance is trying again and again till success takes over.
Before I start, please be warned that this is going to be a really looooong entry as I'm gna blog about my slimming processes.
I have been really determined to slim down this time, enough of those unwanted & hateful comments of being fat. You think I want it this way? Partly to blame, my boyf, who has been feeding me continuously for the past 1 yr 7 mths and made me gained a total of about 14kilograms, but also my brain and mouth plays a big part here too *oops*.
During this period, I tried tonless methods of slimming. It's either because I'm a spoilt brat hence not able to get through it, or it's just burning a hole in my wallet. I've tried a few as stated below:
1) Herbalife
As I said just now, I'm a spoilt brat hence not able to get through it and also burning a hole in my wallet. Yes it does delivers results but I just keep craving on junk food and ultimately, I gave in to them and gave up on Herbalife.
2) Reduze slimming pill (as advertised)
Stopped because it's burning a really big hole in my wallet. Left my previous job because of a super pathetic salary of $700+ every month and a month supply of Reduze cost $128 (if I remembered correctly) simply too much for me to handle. Tried 1 month though and lost abt 5kilos in a month. When I got a new job with better salary I tried back but no more results *sobs*
3) Accupuncture Slimming at TCM
Stopped because I can't tolerate the pain. I have very low tolerance for pain. So I don't know if it really works for me or not though.
Many more but too much to name them.
After trying so many, I decided to visit a doctor and I was prescribed something call Duromine. For those who are reading this and thinking of going for this solution, please continue reading as there are side effects for this medicine and can only be taken for short term. And if possible, please go for other healthier alternatives which you haven't tried and have successful stories behind it before going for this. I'd say this is one of the many unhealthy methods to slim down.
All about Duromine
* Disclaimer. I am not a professional in any of these arrears. I'm writing this mainly is to help those who are considering Duromine as their choice for slimming to be as fully aware as possible of what this medicine is about before having a go at it. If possible, please avoid Duromine if you still have other alternatives. Never risk your health/life for beauty!*
Duromine is an appetite suppresant and contains phentermine as the active ingredient. You can only get this by visiting a doctor. Not all clinics in Singapore have though. Duromine tablets are available in 3 strengths, 15mg, 30mg & 40 mg (not in Singapore). Since its release, Duromine has been used successfully for helping people lose weight. Duromine is recommended only for obese or over weight patients. As Duromine is considered as a controlled medicine, Singapore doctors can only prescribe to patients with BMI over 30.
As I said, Duromine is accompanied with side effects. How serious the side effects can be is up to individual. Side effects that may be experienced are:
-feeling restless
-Weakness
-high blood pressure
-Changes in Sex drive
-Constipation
-Headaches
-difficulty in breathing
-dryness of mouth
-Imsomnia
-Diarrhea
-Chest pain
You may also encounter other side effects like irregular heart beat, chest pain, nervousness, stomach cramps, vomitting and skin rashes.
Only consume the amount of dosage what your doctor prescribed you. Never add up to the dosage. Duromine over doses have serious consequences including death. Symptons of duromine over doses include excess energy, tremor, increased breathing rate, confusion, panic, excess fatigue, depression, hypertension.
I researched about Duromine for about nearly half a year before visiting the doctor. I'm one of those who is experiencing side effects as well. Please don't follow my way of doing as it's very not healthy.
Day 01 - 09th June 2012
Weight : 82kg (8am in the morning)
Ate the pill straight after I weighed.
Breakfast : Fried Beehoon + Luncheon Meat (8.10am)
Lunch : 1 piece of fish cake
Dinner : Sliced fish beehoon soup + 2 fried dumplings (shuijiao)
Water consumed : 2litres
Side effects experienced are dry mouth/throat and irregular heartbeats. Not as bad as i expected.
Day 02 - 10th June 2012
Weight : 81kg (8am in the morning)
Ate the pill straight after I weighed.
Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner : 1 piece fishcake
Water consumed : 2litres
Ate really little this time as it really successfully supress my appetite. No hunger pangs No cravings.
Side effects experienced are dry mouth/throat and irregular heartbeats still.
Day 03 - 11th June 2012
Weight : 80kg (8am in the morning)
Ate the pill straight after I weighed.
Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner : 1 piece fried chicken wing
Water Consumed : ~1.5litres
Side effects experienced are dry mouth/throat and irregular heartbeats still.
Day 04 - 12th June 2012Weight : 80kg (8am in the morning)
Ate the pill straight after I weighed.
Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner : 1 piece fishcake
Water Consumed : ~1.5litres
Side effects experienced are dry mouth/throat and irregular heartbeats and
INSOMNIA!!!
I was so shocked that I'm actually suffering insomnia. I never had problem sleeping since young. Be it a break up with boyf or stress from family/work, once I'm on my bed, I'll definitely sleep like a log. 9 hours is still not enough. But I slept at 2am on this night and woke up at 4.30am. Not able to sleep back after that. Just 2.5hrs of sleep and that's it.
Day 05 - 13th June 2012 (Today)
Weight : 79kg (8.30am in the morning)
Ate the pill straight after I weighed.
Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner : 1/4 packet of rice + fish cake + 1/2 piece of tao gua (dried beancurd)
Water Consumed : ~1.5litres
Side effects experienced are dry mouth/throat and irregular heartbeats still. Hopefully tonight no more insomnia.
So that's all for up till now. I was really sleepy this morning with only 2.5hrs of sleep last night and slept for another 45mins during my bus trip to work. But I'm actually feeling more energetic with 3.15hr of sleep when I'm on Duromine as compared to a 6hrs of sleep whenever I gostay up late but not on Duromine, Except on my bus trip I yawned once, up till now, I have not yawn yet. Just that eyelids are a little heavier then usual that's all.
Shall end here or else you who is reading this will have heavy eyelids too.
Once again, I'm only sharing my experiences
NOT recommending you what I have tried. If you really wish to choose a way from this post, go for the Herbalife one. Healthy and results guaranteed (only if you heed the wellness coach advise of course ^^)
Till then, see ya !
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Gamsahamida !
What's the definition of life to you?
To me, life should be enjoyable. It must to be lived at its fullest.
When I'm typing this post out, I'm dragging my feet to work. Something really bores/stress me out. To the extent that I actually dreamt of that Justice Bao (my boss) scolding & stressing me out. Why am I so stupid to sign that fucking piece of paper and get myself stuck for at least a year? I really blame myself for being so soft at times.
If 2012 were to end like this, I'm. Ot satisfied. I have not lived my life to the fullest yet. I have not made my life enjoyable yet. I'm living my life as though I'm carrying stones weighing a tonne. Money is never enough. Why is the world treating everybody so unfair ? Why am I not born with a golden spoon in my mouth? Yes there are people much more worse then me but who don't want to have more? Tell me, who's really satisfied with their wealth, power and strength?
I want a life whereby I can shop whatever I want, drive a car to wherever I wish to once I have gotten my license, not having to have debts here and there. The list goes down....
Just give me a chance to lead my life happily and I'm satisfied.
P.S at least I'm glad that this bby boy of mine is by my side despite all ups & downs 💗💗💗
It's been a really long time since I last blogged. Apologies! But don't blame me because my life simply don't have any exciting events. Sad thing, you can say I've got no life. But good thing, my life ain't giving me heart attack like how a roller coaster does :) *smiles
Boy & me has been walking together for 1 year, 5 months & 4 days till date. Everything can be considered peaceful. Except some quarrels in between at times. But thank goodness he still loves me like before. Okay, I'm not bragging or whatsoever, believe it or not, boyf treats me like no others treats me. He takes my temperamental attitude, my lack of patience personality and materialistic characteristic. Nobody will be able to bear all this except boyf. That's the reason why I love him tons!
I've my good points too okay! I bear with his "engine" at night when he sleeps, his indecisive characteristic and that playful attitude of him but he loves me too. *hehehehs
Okay, I'm too bored that's why I'm here. Stuck in a more then an hour bus ride home from work. Tmr is my off day #likeafinally. But I've got nth to do actually. Accompany mum in th mrng then boyf in th aftnoon & night. Maybe sleep a few more hours thn usually I could. That's how I spend my off days usually.
Jio me for mahjong sessions! I'm being hooked on it ever since I came back from Kukup Island with boyf and aunts and cuzzies.
Introducing my newly adopted Syrian by the name of "bbyboy" *greetinga
Ciaos!
I want to grow old with you, seeing you and me with grey hairs growing out strand by strands. Will never want to dye them black because they are the proofs of us sharing that wholesome of memories together. I want to witness our childrens & grandchildrens growing up with you together till death do us apart. That's how much
I love you ♥
It may be too early for me to say this. Yes, we're still young. But this is what I want truly deep inside my heart. Some people may critcise or even doubt us. But I don't care. It's our footsteps that we gonna take, not them. Reality is harsh, influences and cruel temptations are everywhere and I know there will sure be people around us trying to "talk us out" negatively. I promise and I swear I won't be influenced. Promise me you won't either alright?
I want to grow old with you.
I want to die lying in your arms.
I want to be there for you,
sharing everything we do.
Look at my silly boy, he never fails to out a smile on my face everytime after a tough day at work :)
We have been together near 16months and still going strong. Super love him! Have not been blogging for quite some time I guess no one really comes here and read but nonetheless, I'm gna show off how awesome my boyf is :)
Shit happened for the past one month, but I can finally let out a sigh because all is over. Maybe not all but who cares? :) At least without the sight of them makes my life back to it's original state and I'm happy :) Being showered with lots of love from boyf, going to work and earn bucks, going home with boyf waiting for me and at last sleep with boyf by my side. Boyf boyf boyf, I know you're gna be annoyed with all my boyf :)
I have to start getting a life already seriously. Everyday stick with boyf, even his family is starting to show annoyance ;x I miss how my life used to be so fun. Clubbing khakis, where are you ? :>
And now, I'm looking forward to June for a Holiday with mummy & boyf :) June faster will you ? *prettyplease*
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Hello readers! It's been a long time since I last updated. Super busy though, and tired. Busy and tired of raising money just to pay off all debts. Damnit! (If only I never started selling lenses I won't be in this shitty mess.) Been dragging damn super duper long, also paiseh to reply them I have not raised enough yet. Sigh! Coming pay must settle all. Then boyf gotta support me for the 1st half of the month le until I get my commission. Not alot either. been MC-ing a number of days so very little.
CNY is a so-so days for me too. Little angpaos + boyf keep going for his LD so no time spend time alone also. No choice. Plus my "big-aunt" around the corner so temper abit shitty also. Pathetic boyf gotta bear all those nonsenses. Sorry!
Super shag now + no mood to blog so shall end here.
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